Down...Down...Down...

I don't want say anything, I don't want explain anything...
I don't care them, not at all...
So Fuck off and leave me alone!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE-the difference in me

Do I believe in love? If you ask me, I think I would say I want to believe in it.
LOVE, it's a such a beautiful word and pure feeling that people pursue.
But, honestly, I don't know. I don't know if I will find the one, the one I love and who will love me back.
Hey, do you want love me?

MONEY TALKS!

Today I had a pretty good day in Flinders. Actually it's the first time I enjoyed Uni after 3 weeks. My tutors for Microbiology and Psychology are so awesome. I love teachers who can make classes interesting and inspire me wanting learn more and think deeper. And absolutely, they both are that kind of inspiring tutor.
However, I still not used to the discussion part. I've got no idea about how to disscuss and what to disscuss, I can't express myself rationally. I think it's the most challenging part in my Uni life until now.
We watched a video about " social influence of health" this afternoon. The totally different life of people from different classes are so shocking to me. For those poor people, money is everything. They don't have a choice,but to give up everything,including healthy, for a little amount of money. Nevertheless, those wealthy people who have got everything, can do whatever they want and have the best quality of life. Is that fair? I know it's not. But it's a fact that nobody can change.
Do I want that life?  A stressing life that I need to worry about how much I can spend and how to get a little bit more money every single minute. Honestly, anyone want that kind of life?
Well. I don't, not at all. That makes my desire to study medicine more stronger. I know it's a tough way, but the independence and freedom it brought are my goals.
So...fuck all those bullshit!I'm going to do whatever I want!!!

heart BROKEN......

They seperated.
My housemates, my friends, people I love,a couple who I used to think will be together forever had ended their relationship.
Well,what I can say. I just wish they will get over and be happy soon. I thought I was ready for a relationship few days ago, but now, I'm not sure. All those drama, all those tears and heart-breaking, can I handle that or maybe I'm too old for that.

F**k my LAZINESS!!!FACE the REALITY, B***H!

Honestly, I haven't worked for ages.I have been living on my previous savings for quite a long time.
I think I just took everything for granted after I passed my damn IELTS. I knew that it's just my luck, however, I did notice that I changed afterwards.
Well, I knew I don't want face the reality that I'm going to spend another two years in nursing. I knew I'm not willing to be a little bitchy nurse for the rest of my life. I can't take it.
However, is there another choice I can take right now? No, there isn't. So, stop complaining,stop hesitating, stop day-dreaming. Live the life you have right now!
WORK HARD cause I need money! STUDY HARD cause I want be a surgeon!LIVE HARD cause it's the only life I've got!

Uni Shock...

Well...got up before 6...took 3 buses...however,missed the 1st lecturer at last...
The first day didn't turn up as what I expected. We couldn't even stick up to the last.
I feel like there are lots of things I need to do, read and prepare for uni work. However, honestly, I've got no idea where to start with.
Tired...
Tomorrow, there are more things waiting for me. but....

NIU'S NEW LIFE

Today is 27 Feb,2011-the date I started blogging.
Tomorrow is 28 Feb,2011. It's gonna be my first day of Uni life.
Honestly, I've never thought I'm gonna go to Flinders. I used to hate this name. LOL. Moreover, I'm going to continue nursing for another 2 years. I've told everyone that how much I hated this field. But here I am...
You know, sometimes we all have a feeling that there is some thing or power out there controls everything. That's the feeling I had when I thought of all those bullshits happened in the past few months. So, actually, i feel quite peaceful now.
But to a person like me, dream is an essential component of my idealistic life. And for now, the dream that supports me is becoming an awesome surgeon in the future. A challenging job with good reputation, decent income, enough freedom and independence.
Well. Live hard as if you are going to lose it in any minute.