One way or the other...

Sometimes, people say what they don't mean. Sometimes, too, they mean what they say, but they don't mean to say it in the way that they say it. Other people then respond badly. Then they say something that they don't really mean or, at least, they say it in a way that they don't mean to say it. The upshot of all this is a whole load of Grade A, export-quality confusion, woven with anger and wrapped in resentment.

Down...Down...Down...

I don't want say anything, I don't want explain anything...
I don't care them, not at all...
So Fuck off and leave me alone!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE-the difference in me

Do I believe in love? If you ask me, I think I would say I want to believe in it.
LOVE, it's a such a beautiful word and pure feeling that people pursue.
But, honestly, I don't know. I don't know if I will find the one, the one I love and who will love me back.
Hey, do you want love me?

MONEY TALKS!

Today I had a pretty good day in Flinders. Actually it's the first time I enjoyed Uni after 3 weeks. My tutors for Microbiology and Psychology are so awesome. I love teachers who can make classes interesting and inspire me wanting learn more and think deeper. And absolutely, they both are that kind of inspiring tutor.
However, I still not used to the discussion part. I've got no idea about how to disscuss and what to disscuss, I can't express myself rationally. I think it's the most challenging part in my Uni life until now.
We watched a video about " social influence of health" this afternoon. The totally different life of people from different classes are so shocking to me. For those poor people, money is everything. They don't have a choice,but to give up everything,including healthy, for a little amount of money. Nevertheless, those wealthy people who have got everything, can do whatever they want and have the best quality of life. Is that fair? I know it's not. But it's a fact that nobody can change.
Do I want that life?  A stressing life that I need to worry about how much I can spend and how to get a little bit more money every single minute. Honestly, anyone want that kind of life?
Well. I don't, not at all. That makes my desire to study medicine more stronger. I know it's a tough way, but the independence and freedom it brought are my goals.
So...fuck all those bullshit!I'm going to do whatever I want!!!

heart BROKEN......

They seperated.
My housemates, my friends, people I love,a couple who I used to think will be together forever had ended their relationship.
Well,what I can say. I just wish they will get over and be happy soon. I thought I was ready for a relationship few days ago, but now, I'm not sure. All those drama, all those tears and heart-breaking, can I handle that or maybe I'm too old for that.

F**k my LAZINESS!!!FACE the REALITY, B***H!

Honestly, I haven't worked for ages.I have been living on my previous savings for quite a long time.
I think I just took everything for granted after I passed my damn IELTS. I knew that it's just my luck, however, I did notice that I changed afterwards.
Well, I knew I don't want face the reality that I'm going to spend another two years in nursing. I knew I'm not willing to be a little bitchy nurse for the rest of my life. I can't take it.
However, is there another choice I can take right now? No, there isn't. So, stop complaining,stop hesitating, stop day-dreaming. Live the life you have right now!
WORK HARD cause I need money! STUDY HARD cause I want be a surgeon!LIVE HARD cause it's the only life I've got!